THE TRUTH……..
As of late and going through the gnarliest 3 years of my life (gnarly dude), that being a bankruptcy of a personal business that I ran for 15 years, a full foreclosure on a private residence after not missing a payment for 5 years and coming home one night to a “get out” notice taped to the gates on my driveway and of course to put the cherry on top a Divorce after a 12 year marriage and 15 year relationship, one involving 12 and 9 year old baby girls.
It’s interesting and somewhat funny and a bit comedic and as Life serves it up to me and I now step back and take the collective look as opposed to the last 15 years of having my head down and grinding away everyday every minute every second oblivious to all around me. Life continues to put things into perspective and just fully allows me to see the irony of life.
Ok so to get to the point of this post – “The Truth”
As I was going through my divorce the word “truth” got thrown around quite a bit over and over and over again. It was great because people want to use this word like it’s the shit, the end all, the “hah” I got you!! Tell the fucking Truth you say!! The best thing about my divorce besides the divorce (just kidding) was the opportunity that it gave to find the courage and find my truth and that is where this takes me, after much thought on this…..
I have come to believe that the truth is an illusion, it like much of everything else it is up for one’s perspective, opinion, point of view, beliefs, persuasion, manipulation, etc. the truth is only in the eye of the beholder, which might not be the same truth that the person across the room from you shares!
a simple example: You and I (insert yourself) can watch the exact same incident go down or overhear the same conversation between people (maybe an argument – just to spice things up) – someone walks up and asks what is going on, let’s just say they say “tell me truth about what is going on here” and then I tell them the truth about what I just saw and or heard and then you look at me like I am a total dipshit and then you proceed to tell the real truth about the situation, or what you saw, or let’s just call it “your truth” – but it wasn’t my truth or the truth of the two people we were watching, get where I am going with this whole “Truth” thing.
so insert a 15 year relationship and a 12 year marriage, that then goes through a divorce, or maybe just a long term friendship, a business partner, etc. throw all the shit out on the table (empty out all that baggage) and sit across from that person and find the truth (meaning that in people terms, truth would imply the thing that “really happened” mostly something that we could agree upon, or who’s wrong and who’s right? that would be considered a simple form of truth)
I have come to determine, or my truth about the truth would be… The TRUTH is an illusion!! a complete and total illusion as it only applies to you and what your truth is, truth is not universal
but we put a ton of stock in it as people. so I say….
Look in the mirror and that reflects your truth!!
wait or does it, are you truthful to yourself, have you ever manipulated the truth to create your truth, the one that makes you feel comfortable, the one that justifies all your actions, the one that makes you feel all warm and fuzzy, the one that let’s you live with yourself and your actions the one that makes your life better, the one that makes your righteous
ohhhhhh to seek the truth!!
jaf